Dying/broken/forgiven.... now I begin

Born: 17-06-56....gemini.... monkey
re-born: 3-09-80
born again\found: 14-04-08
other notable dates: 10-03-68; 03-09-87; 23-03-96;
1-05-98; 31-01-02; 5-04-04

Interests: movement, stressed/transgressive embodiment, lived experience (body\space\time\relation)
expression ( word, dance, text, image, story, music, poetics)
learning, yielding......

Hopes for the blog:
offer up the wild intersectedness of lived experience and engage others in creative, expressive, perhaps irreverant, hopefully playful, and respectful encounters....
enact kindness
create moments of pause for disclosure, discovery, stillness

Thursday, December 26, 2013

This is how I learn

This is how I learn to write 
after weeks of longest night
when it seemed like thought took flight 
this is how I learn

This is how I yearn to share
all the triumph and the fear
from this overwhelming year
this is how I yearn

This is how I burn and rage
against the bullshit assholes wage
almost daily, stage and page
this is how I burn

This is how I turn around
after silence, after sound
grateful, humble, deeper ground
this is how I turn

This is how I learn to say
all that's precious in this day
and the next one, I will stay
open, yielding to the way
wonder, pain and hope can play
I am dwelling, I am dwelling
this is how I learn


  1. two months since my last post and almost as long since I commented on others' posts.... strange indeed, these last eight weeks. tests, scans, blood work, sick, more sick..... and some unexpectedly exhausting and disillusioning teaching. tough coming back after a summer, and, if I am honest, much of the fall, getting over the remnants of chemotherapy. who knew?? well, I do, now (lots of grist for the blogging mill). I am learning. I am learning. the cancer news is still good, the exhaustion is lifting and I am getting ready for a new term with a couple of new courses that I am soooo excited about.... I am learning. See you all soon at your sites. Dwell in this day; it's all there is.

  2. The doldrums, where there is no wind to fill the sails...
    things have been quiet all over the blogosphere - welcome back :)

  3. Garth- thanks for the visit and the sweet and thoughtful comment.As I have come to learn, this is so you....

  4. I like rage. It is one of the few times i am not static. I will se what the day brings and learn from it but if I have to kick some ass...well that is the icing of knowledge.

    I am glad you fight on still and even more pleased that your sword is so far sharper than all that has come against you.

  5. You read my mind ;-) Peace and happiness to you in the New Year, harlequin!!

  6. WM-thanks for the visit and the wonderful irreverence you bring. and thanks for the comment on my sword. I am delighted!!
    Intelliwench-- aha.... a sister in arms!! thank you for the sentiment and a wonderful new year to you as well.

  7. Great poem Harlequin. So glad to see you back and at 'em. May this year be filled with peace and love.

  8. Mr. C. thanks for the visit and the compliment. Glad to be back and at 'em. I wish you a fulfilling year as well. :)

  9. Punch-- thanks for the visit and the sentiment. Namaste.