Dying/broken/forgiven.... now I begin

Born: 17-06-56....gemini.... monkey
re-born: 3-09-80
born again\found: 14-04-08
other notable dates: 10-03-68; 03-09-87; 23-03-96;
1-05-98; 31-01-02; 5-04-04

Interests: movement, stressed/transgressive embodiment, lived experience (body\space\time\relation)
expression ( word, dance, text, image, story, music, poetics)
learning, yielding......

Hopes for the blog:
offer up the wild intersectedness of lived experience and engage others in creative, expressive, perhaps irreverant, hopefully playful, and respectful encounters....
enact kindness
create moments of pause for disclosure, discovery, stillness

Wednesday, March 30, 2011


My father flirts 
with death
from as far back as I can remember
this relationship
shaped my world
the worlds of his other children
the worlds of his wife
risk and its terrible
wonderful consequences
a border
who never left our home
inhabits me still

My father fights 
with life
from as far back as I can remember
he took the driver's seat
knew the road
never showed panic
no matter how lost he was

My father waits 
for spring
maybe summer
if he can lean into this life that death has
recent forays into heroism
leaving him fragile, wondering about who he is
what time is where space is
a stranger better late than never 
it can be
dwelling in the small gifts  of tenderness


  1. after half a month of the medical and physical torment of catastrophic multiple body systems failures, my father returns home and he ...and mother ... and their adult children... are living in the day to day "living with" and the emotional depths and challenges all this brings. It is difficult being five provinces away and wanting to do more.... in a couple of weeks i can get time off work and go east for a while. I am learning... and there is much to learn.

  2. May he face his mortality and not be afraid of it anymore. Go back and be schooled when you get there.

  3. My wife's best friend is going through similar torments. After a liver transplant, and 4 weeks in ICU, up and down, there is a glimmer, just a glimmer that she may make it.

    Even though she is not a relative, my wife has been riding the roller coaster with her friend's family. It is extremely draining. There is indeed much to learn.

  4. I can hear the echoes of a million stories between the lines of what you have written.
    You are fortunate to have lived the full story.

  5. I should add that this is a beautiful poem

  6. WM- thanks for the visit and the sentiment. I am looking forward to dwelling in whatever the time together offers.
    JadedJ-thanks for the resonant comments and the empathy. appreciated.
    Pisces-you are right, i am fortunate to have lived it and to be able to continue to be a part of it. and thanks for the kind comment on the poem.

  7. stunning poem - thank you for this. talent well placed. M.

  8. michael-- thanks for the visit and this gracious comment.
    btw, i like what i see at your blog .... i will be back!!

  9. My dear friend, I almost cried, you know that beautiful poem is the story of my life, but instead of an open ending it had a bad one.

    Enjoy things while you got them, you never know.

  10. mariana--thanks so much for your visit and your kind words.

  11. Beautiful, you.Heartwretchingly beautiful.