My New Normal

Sleep is a good thing
No bullshit tolerance, whatsoever
An even greater appreciation for the absurd

nauseous

Either remembering that I forgot something OR forgetting that I remembered something

nauseous

Realizing that over-commitment will very soon, of necessity, become a thing of the past

nauseous

".... that weird lack of sensation feeling in your fingers and toes? yeah, that might be your new normal..."

" .... those strange short term memory lapses, when you know that you know how to do something, but you still don't know how to do it NOW? yeah, that might be your new normal...."

nauseous

Caution going upstairs
Caution going downstairs

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Writing everything down.... everything!
The phrase " my oncology team"
Regular 3 month check-ins with .... my oncology team

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The phrase " my oncologist says...."

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Thinner
Wondering if I am strong enough to lift that
Cancelling meetings
Sending regrets


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Wanting (desperately!!) to do things that give me joy (like blogging) and feeling duty bound to do the obligations to which I have (stupidly) (over)-committed and which I am beginning to hate more and more

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Knowing that I am finished with doing things that I hate. FINISHED. WITH. IT.
Pissed off that it took cancer/radiation/chemotherapy and their aftermath/s to give me an "aha" moment about stopping spending time on things that I hate.

nauseous

Living with/in the aftermath/s
Diving deep....
..... and surfacing.